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Thursday, November 24, 2011 @ 12:20 AM
Been awhile
its been awhile.
no one reads this anymore, i know. but that isnt why i write here in the first place. on most days i keep my thoughts to myself, my heart questions and my mind answers, or sometimes the other way around. but there are some days like today. i havent used this space in a long time, half a year, really. time is strange. how it can feel like its moving so fast, yet so slow at the same time. just another month and a few days and i'll be 21. well not officially till August, but still. i dont know if im the only one, but im scared- of growing up. on one hand, these past months ive been thinking of all things adult. future, marriage, even babies. don't judge me. but on the other, this constant fear of what is unknown. of failure and disappointment. and then there are dreams. those that never got to be fulfilled... hell, those that never even got a chance to be tried. they say live life to the fullest. here i am having already spent 20 years away, yet i feel so far away from 'full' is a lifetime even enough to be lived to the fullest? xoxo Rachel |